You are far away, but our hearts are closer

My dearest love,

I'm fully aware that you'll be gone in a matter of days. 
It matters not how long you shall be gone, 
or that you shall be back in what may seem a long while or a little while, depending on your feeling. 

It matters mostly that I shall miss you. 
I feel that even now, though we have two days left before your departure, that we are already separated. 

I know that you are worried about what you shall feel once you arrive (and your job). 
I know how well you are anxious about having time to relax and take your ease as you desire. 
I think it will not be a problem. Sometimes you will be exhausted, 
but you will enjoy every moment that you spend there with me. 
Hopefully this will last for the next 3 months after you leave and forever. 


I am sad that you are leaving, or rather, that you will be gone. You will be making memories without me. 
There was a time in your life when you made memories without me, but that was before we met. 
Even after we had met, before I fell in love with you, it did not matter so much that I was not a large part of your life.
  
Surely, I did not expect to be in it. But in this case, things are different. 
I do not want to make memories without you. 
I do not want you to make memories without me. 
I will be saddened as I hear from you about, what you are doing that I can and will never participate in. 
You will be making memories with others, 
with people neither one of us know nor I shall perhaps never know. 

I will miss you in this sense. 
I cannot make these memories with you. You must make them alone. 
As much as it is a journey for me to be without you here at home, 
as you travel and leave for the greater good. This will be a journey for you and me as well. 






You are sleeping right next to me, moppy is sleeping too,I am looking at your face and holding your hand. 
I will remember this moment in my heart, and hope I will never leave it behind. For the first time, 
I am making memories while we are together, but we are not together in the physical sense. We are far away. 
Oceans and countries and thousands of miles away. 

Hopefully our hearts are not far away, don't you think so too? 


Roger